So I passed my exam on probability. I scored 13 out of 15, I just messed up the part about the so called testing hypothesis =(. I feel happy.
In this post I wanted to share a couple of experiences that have been going on on my life , and somehow, they all seem to share some crucial aspects even when they are very different by definition.
It's like when a smell reminds you of the taste of something. I mean, by definition, smell and taste are different senses, and they are detected by different mechanisms (you would say at first), and still, our brain can compare these two types of signals...of course, when you think in terms of molecules of substance being detected by the cell-receptors in your nose and tongue, smell and taste don't look so different. But you have to admit that unless you know something about this molecular behavior, there is no apparent way of reconciling these two things, and its just weird to remember the taste of something by smelling something else.
Well, something like that has been happening to me in a slightly different context. I tried weed for the first time. And the experience I had was comparable to a dream.
I felt the very same things, though about the same things, and the shocking part, I used the same type of logical approach when trying to solve a problem (a theoretical one...practical, more handy things usually brought me back to reality, they kinda make me wake up...if that makes any sense)
So apart from the weird sensation of me vibrating like a membrane when hit by the sound waves in the music, or the feeling that everybody is watching you and you can't stop laughing about that, something worth mentioning actually happen....
The moment I excuse myself from the table, and went to the bathroom for a little bit of coolness, I start having an irrepressible rush of brilliant, novel, worth spreading on TED, set of ideas about pretty much every unsolved problem in physics I could think off !...and I was astonished with each one of them..... dazzled upon its beauty....I couldn't believe all this have been lying on my insignificant brain all this time!..trust me, you would've cried...it was the best time Ive had in a bathroom so far....=)
Sudenly I knew the QM wave function governing every particle in the universe, I knew how to derive it, how to solve it for every single case, I could visualize it....it wasn't a simple function, but it existed, and I had it in front of me!...
I got a solution to the Navier-Stokes equations for fluid mechanics, I knew the solution, you just had to consider and extra thing that everybody else have been missing...till now, till me.
GTR wasn't right. Einstein field equations were close, but they have been manipulated in the wrong order. I had it done correctly, in my mind, in a matter of seconds...the solution was perfect, I start making ''computer'' simulations right away in my head, they all fitted, not dark matter needed, no dark energy....If you don't cry at this point you are a robot!
And these kind of ideas just kept coming to me...like I said before: An irrepressible rush.....It was a great time there...there, in the dreamy world.
There were also sad things. These ideas are only the few I remember, I kept forgetting most of them 10 seconds after they magically appear in my mind...it was very frustrating. Fortunately enough, I was able to record myself, describing them and getting desperate whenever I forget them (...of course I didn't forget everything about them...otherwise I couldn't grieve about forgetting them, most of the time, I knew I just forgot a great idea, but didn't know exactly about what.) That way I got a few left to tell you about.
The thing here is, that when I woke up next morning, and played the recording I found something incredibly odd. All the postulates of my ideas were correct, I knew about what I wanted to solve/accomplish, but from there on my logic was totally poor and wicked. I end up having solutions with strawberry pies as variables, policemen rearranging Einstein's equations, super glue aligning all the electron's spins, and all sort of weird and nonsense things!...I was so disappointed =(.
But at this point I knew it was OK. I mean , you hear people having weird experiences, talking to car plates, or whispering to the moon. So I stopped thinking about that, and continued with my day as if nothing had happened...
A few days ago I start wondering about the experience I had. I just didn't seem right the fact that my brain, a scientific one I would say, let such a faulty arguments impregnate the beautiful, ordered, objective, and clear paradigm that science is. How is it possible that strawberries and covariant tensors were indifferent to me?. Why would I trust policemen when talking about GTR stuff ?. Why did I make such a stupid logical conjectures!?. The more I though about it, the more disappointed I start feeling at my education....lol.
Finally, a couple of days ago, I had a dream. The dream started in the middle of a city which I knew perfectly, I was talking to a person I knew very well, I felt like we had a strong relation, I could trust that person. Somehow I didn't need any context, I knew it all. We were discussing about how our computers were talking to us all the time, not through a speaker, no...the very screen had a huge mouth and it would distore the image as it spoke. the computer was inviting us to visit the Governor. We were laughing because everybody knew there are no Governors in Mars!.....OK?.....ok....
Now, why didn't I just stoped the conversation there, asked about how can computer talk to us, how come we are on Marse...I don't know...the stuff any person would ask. Why wasn't I using my usual intellect there? Where was all the reality gone? How did I know that city or that person?...
.....Why my logic was wretched?....
That totally reminded me of the weed experience, I have come to the conclusion that logic wasn't as straightforward as it seems when you are awake...a whole new set of possibilities existed. Things could exist regardless of the logical possibility/impossibility status they have on the awake reality. If you check the different types of Omnipotence, you can come to the conclusion, that God's attribute of Omnipotence is logically impossible (as well as Omniscience) in this world, under this "logical paradigm". However, if logically incompatible phenomena could coexist in the same "reality", God, and all it's attributes would be non-sense. Such reality can be identified with the reality I just experienced, a reality where the rules of logic, the very cornerstone of our civilization, work in a different way. Check this out, and tell me: how this contradiction has permeated our religions, our believes, our lives?
What should we do about this? What can we do?. Can we just rise a flag and claim this part of the Universe as a wrecked-logic-free-zone or something? Should we leave this wretched-logical things confined to our dreams and trips? Or the opposite!....Should we study it, I mean the fact that such pathological logical objects are available to us only in dreams and trips sets the bar really high from an experimentalist point of view, but still. Its a fascinating idea.





